Cracking boiled eggs - there are 3
I crack them by hitting them against each other and marvel at the first eggs ability to withstand the hits.... I peel whichever egg cracks first. The first egg doesn't crack against either egg. I peel it last.
Finally time to crack this last egg, which I’d picked up first. The strong egg. ...I use a spoon. It doesn't peel as easily as the other eggs... It loses pieces of the egg white with the shell.
My hypothesis: it stayed whole too long. The heat trapped inside its shell allowed it to cook for just a little bit longer than it needed.
Maybe it would've benefitted from cracking earlier. Releasing the heat inside.
Reflection questions I’m asking myself:
When are the times I have tried so hard to hide the cracks (e.g. hurts, pain, confusion, love) and present a smooth, undisturbed face to my detriment later?
(Side note: so many times come flooding to my consciousness that I’m a bit overwhelmed, sad…and there’s a hint of resolve somewhere mixed in there. With awareness comes possibility.)
With whom can I crack?
(Sending a silent thank you to each of you I can crack with…may my gratitude find you and may you feel it deep in your bones. Asé.)
What now? What do I do now that I feel the cracks so deeply?
(A little self-talk with needed reminders: Ama, you’re a human *being* not a human doing…can’t remember where I first encountered this and it stays with me….And rev angel Kyodo williams says, when the water is unclear to just be still and return, it will clear…And Dr. Bayo Akomolafe encourages me to explore the cracks, because that’s were I’ll find what I need... And Tricia Hersey (aka The Nap Bishop) always suggests a nap.)
Maybe, even with all of my cracks, all i need is still within me.
Thank you, dear reader/listener, for bearing witness to my journey this morning…I’m feeling more hopeful…leaning toward what is possible.
Also, it feels important to acknowledge here that I recognize that the perspective of the bird regarding my lesson would probably be very different. #FromWhoseGaze